the first photo was taken when i was watching the sunrise a few days ago!
the quality is miserable, i know
but it was such a lovely morning!
the past time just...
i have no word for it...
wait i have to google it!
noin! i can't find one!
but anyways it just isn't the best time of my life at the moment.
i try to ignore everything bad
if i am honest.
but i don't seem to be that successful.
yesterday i had the worst hangover of my life.
i had to vomit and couldn't do anything the whole day.
but, i don't know why,
it wasn't that bad. because therefore
the day before had make me forget everything for a few hours.
even if i have to suffer abit afterwards..
it was worth it i guess.
but i had never ever thought
that i would think that way about taking drugs anytime.
honestly
it makes me feel even sadder.
but enough.
my blog should be about the positive aspects of my life
and here i totally want to forget
that there are any other.
so finally i have one good thing to tell you about my life right now:
my relationship to mother
is after a long period of time
really really good.
(i mean she doesn't anything about the drug thing
or that i skip classes yet, but whatever!)
but from now on i will try to get my life under control.
to be the paula again which i was. a long time ago.
excuse me.
the next post will be more interesting and meaningful,
i promise.